Remember how you always thought that life was always going to suck and your dreams were never going to come true. Well I'm here to tell you. It takes you longer than you ever think it will and you will get so frustrated with how long it takes and how much grinding and busting your ass you have to do to get there. You will go through some of the worst things in your life you've ever been through and there will be many times that you're not even sure you will make it to the other side or that you even want to. You'll find out family is something that you make on your own not necessarily something you're born into. Feeling like you have family doesn't happen until later in life. You'll wind up cutting off an entire side of your family. Keep your head up and look forward. Don't look in the rear view. There's nothing there for you anymore. It's going to get rough. Long stretches of hard times. During that time just remember you're not alone not nearly as alone as you think you are. People do care. And don't give your heart and soul to a job it will destroy you or a family out to do the same. You will make it to the other side through that even though you don't think you will. But you wind up living in the place that you always used to run to when life got tough. It was always hard to be sad when you were near the sand the sun and the water and that great little Beach town. It's where you will find your spirit again. In more ways than one. It will be the place that brings you back to life. You'll still hate health care that won't change. You do find some good people along the way who make it tolerable. Eventually you make a few friends who just get it. You end up buying your dream house and meeting your soulmate. It's every bit the fairy tale that they talk about in books and movies. And it's completely worth it. So keep your head up as you go through dating thinking that you'll never find the one. Because you do just takes you a little longer to come together. And that one that you always thought you would end up with. He was never The Shining Star that you thought he was. You were. He was just too blind to see it for a very long time. You'll have a surgery that terrified you, learn to walk again. But for the first time in almost your entire life remember what it's like to walk without pain. You'll be able to climb stairs and still Marvel at it like you are climbing Mount Everest. You'll come to find that peace that you always search for in sunrises and sunsets and coffee in the early morning and growing herbs and plants and sunflowers. Learning to live again will be challenging. It takes a lot of stepping out of the darkness and into the light. Something you're not at all familiar with. But just trust me and go with it. It feels very foreign to you. But once you find that light you never want to let it go. You have to remind yourself probably a hundred times that you deserve to be happy. And you do. You just didn't think you deserved it because of all the horrible stuff you went through in life. You never had time to live or find happiness. You were too busy just trying not to die or drown as life tried to take you under. But you get there my girl. Just takes way longer than you ever think it will. And at some point you realize you made it. Came out of the darkness and found the light and somehow found your happily ever after in the process.
