its ok to be not ok

So today is World Mental Health Day and lets be real our mental health has definitely been tested this year with everything that has gone on in 2020. Covid, Elections, quarentine, working the front lines, hurricanes u almost dread watching the news wondering whats next? Then add lupus flares on top of all that and its like the downhill slope of the roller coaster. Hang on for dear life and weeeeeeeeeeee!! Here we go!! So in the last episode of 2020 is a shit show my lupus was active again for the first time in 20 years. To be honest Im not surprised given the amout of stress I was under.  I had to learn how to manage my stress and quickly. 3 things here lately have made me very Zen. Ok sometimes Zen. Lol Meditation,  netflix and lots of animal crossing were my saving grace. Im still a work in progress so learning to not let things stress me out has been a process.  But somehow I came out the other side. I sat in my doctors office in shock as they told me my labs were back to normal and the bump in immunosuppresants did the trick. Just like that. Boom. The seas are calm again for now. Now to readjust and try to remember what normal is like. Or is there such a thing? In the words of Charles Adams "Normal is an illusion. What is normal for the spider is chaos to the fly." Just keep swimming kids. The light at the end of this shit show tunnel is getting closer. Just keep swimming guys.